yes, I'm still here.. Just haven't been writing much lately.. things are about the same, but each day gets a bit easier.
If there were no words...
This weblog has gone through many changes since I started it in May 2003. It was originally created to keep family and friends informed of my grandmother's (who we called Mema) progress when she was diagnosed with a recurrance of Hodgkin's Lymphoma. Sadly, she unexpectedly passed away on May 22, 2003 and I miss her more than words can express. This weblog then became a grief journal. Now its a little of all of the above. contact: catladyfromnpt@hotmail.com
Saturday, June 28, 2003
Friday, June 20, 2003
I wanted to write something yesterday, but couldn't seem to come up with the words.
Yesterday was 4 weeks.. so its been a month. Whoever said "time heals" lied.
I will say that keeping busy does help, but thats about it.
Monday, June 16, 2003
I have a few pictures on my desk.. the one I mentioned recently and another one of Mema and Norma. Next to them I have one of the prayer cards from her funeral.. one side has "Footprints" on it and the other side has this:
In Loving Memory of
Frances E. D*****
May 3, 1923-May 22, 2003
I'd like the memory of me
to be a happy one,
I'd like to leave an afterglow
of smiles when life is done.
I'd like to leave an echo
whispering softly down the ways,
of happy times and laughing
times and bright and sunny days.
I'd like the tears of those
who grieve , to dry before the sun.
Of happy memories that I leave
when life is done...
That poem just "fits"
I've also got a rose sitting in front of the two pictures and the prayer card. Its one of the roses from the funeral, it dried out nice. When I first brought it home, JoJo thought it was for him. He was sniffing it and rubbing against it and I thought it was going to be fine until he opened his mouth and went to take a bite of it. I told him he couldn't eat it.. because it was Mema's flower. So its still here, in one piece.
he has showed amazing self control!
I can't say it gets easier every day, but some days are better than others. I try to keep busy most of the time, and when I take the time to stop and think.. which is often.. I try to concentrate on the happy memories.. because really.. all my memories of spending time with her are happy memories.
Friday, June 06, 2003
Memories of You
Our time together I cherish
But, you went away too soon
I search the heavens every night
Gazing at each star and the moon
Which light are you
sending your brilliance down
Every star has its own beauty
You're the one I try to find
as I look around
I stand here on earth
in the quiet of the night
I know when I find you
You'll be shining bright
That could never change
for brightness was always you
walking here beside me
It was the beauty of your heart
that everyone could see
I am always asking the question
Because you went away too soon
Why?
You will never be forgotten
The memory of you will forever
shine bright up in heaven's sky
In loving memory of those
no longer with us here on earth
but their light still shines brightly
inside our hearts
©2003 Kathryn Sunday Davis
Thursday, June 05, 2003
Monday, June 02, 2003
I have this picture of Mema and Pa on my desk, they both look to be in their early twenties and they look so in love.. I have another picture that was taken at my wedding.. and they have that same "in love" look on their faces then too..
I can close my eyes and picture them together now.. walking amongst the clouds.. in a peaceful place.. happy and healthy again.. and still just as in love as when that first picture was taken.