yes, I'm still here.. Just haven't been writing much lately.. things are about the same, but each day gets a bit easier.

I wanted to write something yesterday, but couldn't seem to come up with the words.

Yesterday was 4 weeks.. so its been a month. Whoever said "time heals" lied.

I will say that keeping busy does help, but thats about it.

I have a few pictures on my desk.. the one I mentioned recently and another one of Mema and Norma. Next to them I have one of the prayer cards from her funeral.. one side has "Footprints" on it and the other side has this:

In Loving Memory of

Frances E. D*****

May 3, 1923-May 22, 2003

I'd like the memory of me
to be a happy one,
I'd like to leave an afterglow
of smiles when life is done.
I'd like to leave an echo
whispering softly down the ways,
of happy times and laughing
times and bright and sunny days.
I'd like the tears of those
who grieve , to dry before the sun.
Of happy memories that I leave
when life is done...

That poem just "fits"

I've also got a rose sitting in front of the two pictures and the prayer card. Its one of the roses from the funeral, it dried out nice. When I first brought it home, JoJo thought it was for him. He was sniffing it and rubbing against it and I thought it was going to be fine until he opened his mouth and went to take a bite of it. I told him he couldn't eat it.. because it was Mema's flower. So its still here, in one piece.

he has showed amazing self control!



I can't say it gets easier every day, but some days are better than others. I try to keep busy most of the time, and when I take the time to stop and think.. which is often.. I try to concentrate on the happy memories.. because really.. all my memories of spending time with her are happy memories.

Memories of You

Our time together I cherish

But, you went away too soon

I search the heavens every night

Gazing at each star and the moon


Which light are you

sending your brilliance down

Every star has its own beauty

You're the one I try to find

as I look around


I stand here on earth

in the quiet of the night

I know when I find you

You'll be shining bright


That could never change

for brightness was always you

walking here beside me

It was the beauty of your heart

that everyone could see


I am always asking the question

Because you went away too soon

Why?

You will never be forgotten

The memory of you will forever

shine bright up in heaven's sky


In loving memory of those

no longer with us here on earth

but their light still shines brightly

inside our hearts

©2003 Kathryn Sunday Davis

61 years

today would have been their 61st wedding anniversary.

Happy Anniversary Mema and Pa

I have this picture of Mema and Pa on my desk, they both look to be in their early twenties and they look so in love.. I have another picture that was taken at my wedding.. and they have that same "in love" look on their faces then too..

I can close my eyes and picture them together now.. walking amongst the clouds.. in a peaceful place.. happy and healthy again.. and still just as in love as when that first picture was taken.